God recently decided to remodel my life a bit. Ok, so it’s more like wrecking and rebuilding it. More of that to come. But for now, first let me say hello again. It’s been a really long time. I’ve missed this. Writing. Sharing. Seeking. Moving forward, I’m going to be doing a lot of that. And in a very genuine way for the first time ever.

Before we dig in to what God is doing in my life, let me say this. I’m doubting all the way. Fighting disbelief. Making God to be smaller than He is. And with every step I take, He is showing up. Bigger and better. And making me feel very foolish for continuing to offer up a mustard seed of faith, instead of a mountain of it.

I was reading in Isaiah tonight, chapter 66. And in verse 9, God asks a few really pointed questions:comingsoon

“Shall I bring to the time of birth, and not cause delivery? Shall I who cause delivery shut up the womb?”

Basically, what He was saying to me was this: Why in the world would I put you in this position, bring you to this place, put everything you have on the line, and then not deliver for you? Why the build up, the suspense? I could have just let you die quietly. No need for a public execution! Don’t you think I have a miracle to work here? Don’t you think this is all too well ordered to end in chaos? Too organized to have no point? Too divine to not end with power and grace?

I see his point. There is no need to let me labor like this if He isn’t going to deliver and bring the miracle of life into my world. No reason at all.

In the end, this is all I have to believe. I don’t have to know exactly how it happens, or where the road leads or even what the destination actually is. I just have to trust that through this labor, comes love. That He delivers. And in my life, it’s coming soon!

I look forward to more frequent conversations here. And if you are out there, feel free to say hi back!